I got upset about something yesterday, and then I let myself to wallow in my frustration. I knew it wasn’t right, but in a strange way it felt good to sit there and stew.
Do you know what I mean?
You just want to slink away and throw yourself your own private little pity party, alone with your misery. Maybe decorate with some black streamers and balloons.
Of course the reason it feels so good is because it’s so completely self-centered.
I went to bed still fretting. It woke me up at 2:30 in the morning, and I laid awake and fretted some more for three hours.
The sad thing is, it’s not really a big deal. I shouldn’t have been so upset by it. In a week it won’t even have mattered.
But I let a bad attitude get the best of me, and now I’m paying for it with exhaustion.
Finally, at 5:30 in the morning I gave in and prayed about it. I should have done it sooner. I thought about doing it sooner. But I was just having to much fun at my rockin’ pity party.
I asked to Lord to adjust my attitude and asked for forgiveness. I left the matter that was bothering me in his hands, and asked him to solve it. Then I asked him why I let myself get so worked up when I know it isn’t right? He brought these familiar verses to my mind.
“Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.” Proverbs 3:5-6
See, I start feeling sorry for myself and worrying about things when I’m not trusting in the Lord. When I see things only from my limited human perspective. Once I went to the Lord, he straightened out my attitude.
I’ve got a pretty bad hangover this morning from yesterday’s pity party. I wasted a lot of mental and emotional energy on it, and I’m tired from laying awake for three hours last night. In fact, it’s almost enough to start up the party again.
But I’m trusting the Lord this time.
This party is over.
Sometimes I do that too. I forget to give my problems, as stupid as they may seem, to Him. Because He’ll take care of all of them, big and small.
I’m happy you’ve let it go 🙂 Beautiful verse, thank you for sharing 🙂
I’m dealing with something now and I’ve spent most of the day in tears. I really needed this entry. Thank you for reminding me that God will take care of us…if we let Him.
I love that verse!
I’m glad you were encouraged. It seems like I have to remind myself almost on daily basis to just let God handle things. It sure gets better when I do!
I love this verse! Many years ago, one of my daughters was taught this verse in Vacation Bible School. That day was going particularly bad — nearly out of gas, no money on me, had left my purse at a friend’s house and not enough gas to go back — and this was before most of us had cell phones!! I didn’t even have change to use the pay phone! I was fuming mad at the gas station, not knowing what to do. My daughter pipes up, “Mommy, you need to remember the verse!” “WHAT VERSE?” (with a very nasty tone in my voice!) “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and don’t try to do the figuring out yourself!” That was probably 15 or more years ago, and I still love HER version of that verse the best of all!! When I can’t figure things out, God can!!