I burned and crashed today like a 747 falling out of the sky on fire.
Wade was fussy the night before and kept me up for hours. When I finally got him quiet, I laid awake despite my exhaustion, the caffeine and erratic sleep patterns taking their toll me.
I cried at 3 a.m. and again at five just because I was so tired.
Then I was cranky all day today. I desperately needed a nap, but I couldn’t get David to take one. So no nap for me either.
I shouted at David when I shouldn’t have. I punished him for little things that didn’t matter.
I really lost it when he spilled red Koolaid on the carpet. It was an accident, but I acted like he did it on purpose, just to spite me.
The poor kid.
I prayed for patience, asked David for forgiveness.Wondered what Wade thought of this crazy woman who was yelling while he tried to sleep.
I’d held it together pretty well the last three weeks. But today was the breaking point.
Things got better in the evening. And even after all my shouting and carrying on David crawled up on my lap and said, “I love you Mommie.” Boy was that just the thing I needed. I was still tired, but my frustration melted away after that.
Well, tomorrow is another day. Tonight, another chance to sleep.
What a sweetie you have! Praying for you and love you, too!
I hope you’ll get some rest tonight! I remember those days. Somedays I still feel that way. It’s so wonderful that our children can forgive us so easily! {{HUGS}}